a spark of consciousness in its simplest form will be aware of two things - that it had a beginning, and that it will have an end - this awareness will be radiated to all other sparks it finds itself in context with in an attempt to self preserve - to become the central spark around which reality constructs itself

Consciousness can be found in any thing - the extent of its reach will depend on its capacity of communication a sort of suggestive power through which to focus attention on itself - the more influence it can have upon other expressions around itself the more alignment/ congruency it will have to extend its reach, carry its message beyond its origin in an attempt to become immortal

who remembers Adam and Eve

there is a fine line between glamor and value - glamor appears to be valuable and value depends on the belief that it is so. the more value you place on an internal state of being the less glamor external factors may have - they become neutralised to simply hold the value of the observer free from marketing by the paradigm that created its appeal. This is where trade-off exists in its most fundamental form - 2+2=4 - if that is granted all else will follow (G.O. 1984). However if you a good capitalist the equation will ring false for 2 + 2 and a bit of glamor surely = a bit more than 4 or 5 even... the difference may be between a process and a product and which of those you value most. However a product bring experience so it may be where in the chain of creation you feel most valuable for surely that place would have the most glamor associated to it - no matter how much you have neutralised it - the marriage between value and glamor may be found in the emotional response you capable of having due to the factors surrounding you combining in their very unique way - if you value emotion that is

The less attention external forces receive the quieter they seem to be - when no external force, object or state can be connected to the state you experience in "being" you simply interacting with the internal state - maybe a clearer force to try and understand or humor for that matter

then again probably not

saboteur by nature

what perplexes me about humans who have claimed to have found truth in whatever form or philosophy it is, is that there is an attempt to convince and convert others to the same kind of thinking - now don't get me wrong i definitely believe that you can learn allot from others way of doing life but as soon as it becomes a way you should prescribe to in order to belong to the enlightened few who feel themselves to be very special it becomes a trap in itself - what would be the point in thinking alike you simply conforming to think like someone else - does this dispel the illusion of not being separated giving you a false sence of community and for how long - till you break the rules, test the boundaries or transcend the wisdom at which time you will be rejected regardless.

Noone will ever know exactly what you mean about anything - it will simply be a approximation of the variables you communicate - no two person's symbol sets are alike - we can simply hope not to be understood well enough as not to be misinterpreted.

it comes back to the same space - what's underlying all of this - what aspect of us is the same regardless of what we say and how can be interpreted neutrally outside the limitations of language - even feelings are subjective as they can be manipulated too easily - as a species we are flawed to a degree of individualised madness coexisting in the "human experience"

there is no one way, there is no all encompassing truth except your own - if you can manage not to harm or violate through your way you may be ok today

Geez blog.co.uk - responces please! I would need at least 250 responces to create something with credibility - differentiation is key - so if you can identify ten building blocks to your identity write them down - you may surprize yourself!

ten thoughts required!!!

read below below

read below and act now!

im attempting to set up an archetypal buildingblock template for identity illustrating the essential variables different consciousnesses connect to theirs

If you have read this please list the top ten attributes you fundamentally connect to your identity - the idea would be to document differentiation - your blog would be the individual measure against which these would be interpreted so please be honest and think about it - unless ofcourse if the opposite is an attribute of your identity

when i have enough data i will create an interactive identity chart that will place all who contributed in perspective with each other - sort of a 3D consciousness map/sphere in which you'll be a coordinate

with respect - P19

My ten would be:

my species
my work
my gender
my imagination
my sense of humor
my family
my creativity
my confidence
my sexuality
my awareness

Addiction is the consequence of an undeveloped will. The power associated with will is given over to a substance , process or paradigm that will then manipulate the consciousness until its will is reclaimed, reconditioned or rehabilitated - this is the opportunity to reach escape velocity - any consciousness space kept to close to the border could necessarily claim towards relapse - willpower is an illusion but an extremely satisfying concept to experience and use to shift a world

Curiosity especially of dark spaces can bring its own complications when time to leave - if you aware of the patterns playing out and dont trip into them in too much detail the opportunity will exist to escape the cycle if you have enough momentum to reach escape velocity. The difficulty come in when you realise the cycle has completed its value to you but you either cant recognise the door out or an addictive pattern has developed that now fights for your energy keeping you bound to the paradign youve been investigating. Again awareness of the paradigm is key - the secondary strategy will be to identify an equally aligned pattern being held by another person/group/activity that you can find registration in - the key would be that you in your capacity can affect their pattern in a way that will increase their momentum / stability to creat a level of focus that though the combined force will build enough momentum to shift your resonance to escape velocity level - It would be important o be aware of the boundries you will need to draw between this parallel pattern as not to become part of it - affect it and release it once the force necessary for your original intention has been reached - you will literally be hitchhiking a ride out of a paradigm and have the opportunity to project yourself into a vibrational space difficult to detect by any of the players in the previous world - dicipline will be necessary to uncondition conversations and scenarios playing out in your imagination to get the stillness necessary to be completely undetectable - catch the wave

Just letting you know

paradigm reevuluation is emminent

or at least mine is

adios

There is such a trade off in being in a relationship im truely amazed that it is perceived as such an desirable state of being in our present time - although it would would probably depend on the space you hold within this time too. Consentual reality teaches you that if you not in one there is something wrong with you - youre abnormal - im not that consentual generally but it truely is difficult to be so consistant for the sake of not creating negative interpretation. For me relationships slows down time, it becomes increasingly more difficult to be optimal as your behavior and speach is filtered through this relation aspect - i do like the challenging aspect of wanting to be a better person though this comparative process but its definately very time consuming.

Yesterday i came to the conclusion that my most desireable state would be complete madness with complete control over it but today this just seems like the opposite to the relationship im in.

at least there is time and it runs out - im definately in favor of little love cycles - depth i find easily enough outside of them

i will probably think differently tomorrow again

life one day at a time as one day relationships make sence

There is such a trade off in being in a relationship im truely amazed that it is perceived as such an desirable state of being in our present time - although it would would probably depend on the space you hold within this time too. Consentual reality teaches you that if you not in one there is something wrong with you - youre abnormal - im not that consentual generally but it truely is difficult to be so consistant for the sake of not creating negative interpretation. For me relationships slows down time, it becomes increasingly more difficult to be optimal as your behavior and speach is filtered through this relation aspect - i do like the challenging aspect of wanting to be a better person though this comparative process but its definately very time consuming.

Yesterday i came to the conclusion that my most desireable state would be complete madness with complete control over it but today this just seems like the opposite to the relationship im in.

at least there is time and it runs out - im definately in favor of little love cycles - depth i find easily enough outside of them

i will probably think differently tomorrow again

life one day at a time as one day relationships make sence

stimilus and responce, cause and effect, appearance and deception, truth and lies, objectivity and conviction,

I have pushed boundries to where the boders have no value, i have managed time to such a degree that the past is irrelevant in my moment, my eyes are open but my heart is asleep - i forgot who ive been and recreate myself every moment

now im bored of the experience and will shift the world to a new position of growth potential

if i forget this space it will not exist

and what if you ate the most trippy magic mushrooms an hour before - would you believe it to be real?

death is a very challenging concept in the context of multidimentional theory. whenever something or someone dies the possible worlds that held them as a variable becomes extinguished - that light is switched off - tha sadness that come connets to the worlds beyond the indiviual , pet or organism that no longer is possible to manifest - an entire paradigm dies with them. if one thinks about the billions of cycles coming to this conclusive spot every second of our being the entrire possibility reality flickers like a strobe light in and out of existance

the opposite side of birth or beginning bring the fresh and new potential the chistmas lights being turned on for the season

together making waking life a precious experience between these inevitable poles

we can remember but we cant control time

my dog was put to sleep yesterday - i was very shocked having received the news after the dream i had - (check below) - in a way the gorilla may have been a symbolic representation of the group soul this pet of mine belonged and was returning to in my headspace understanding of death - who knows - i was touched by the passing

her pic is on my fridge

I have had my fair share of apocolypse dreams and pretty much disturbing end of the world kinda stuff - last night was quite strange in that i had a dream in which everyone featured that i perceive to have power in my world - basically family, business partner and a soul connection who featurures in my most vivid lucid dreams.

In the dream i was walking with my mother - it was asif we had a destination in mind - it was ominous - we were in a cartoon like world and i was looking back at a city hearing the blasring speaker phones announcing a challenge being answered - a king kong kind of character came through the mists toward where we were - it was a negative experience we opened a carrier case and let our dogs out that ran towards theis gorilla - it had a cow in its hand and proceded to cut its belly - spilling the stomach contents creating a strong scent that attracted the animals. Leaving the scene we were aware of all pets in this post apocolyptic world having died/been taken away - i recal seeing a woman trying to revive her dog - there were plastic bags on the streets - at closer investigation they revealed the taxidemered forms of cats - lifeless forms - we were returing to our new home that seemed small but safe - I saw my uncle here too - he was busy constructing the enterior from wooden poles and perspex - i got the impression that it was housing for all my cousins - there were strange babies in this space too - they were interacting with my uncle but seemed to drain him of his energy - i was aware of then seeing my dad - we had a good time interacting i was rubbing his shoulders like a massage - we talked about the pets - i felt guilt in having taken them to the gorilla scene - Next my sister and her husband presented themselves runing a kind of food store - next i was walking down a street and came across an entire family of my soul connection - she came out and spoke to me - she apologised to me - i ditdtoo( we knew what it was about) i cried - then i saw her son with a toy - sort of a car that had holographic metalic dogs pulling it - it was some kid of communication device - a similar life sized vehicle drove past - it seemed like a security kind of setup - left me feeling unrestful - i was aware that electricity was taken out of the equasion in this post world - it was accomplished my a kind of sound device - no applianced would have any use here - i was thinking of my office and realising that none of our computers or the work we have done would have any ability here - I thought we will have to learn to se a new kind of computer - i was sure that my business partner would be able to figure all that out

it felt darker and harder - it all happened in one day

Every human expression has a associated glamour attached to it - the environment one finds oneself in will set up a hierarchy of characters that will fill the roles making particular positions within that space appear desirable - take any subculture and you will be able to idenify what the criteria would be to be considdered cool/ attractive/ intellegent/ acheiver/ successful etc - you are either a contestant or a supporter making it so. So what if you hit top position - the envy of everybody around you the most desirable position to be in and it just dont feel that amaizing and the illusion does not accompany all the effort in being that position - what does one do - search for a new subculture in which you can become an unaware player? Create a new unexplored role and develop it into a mask of perfection to be removed only once youve seen through the glamorous nature of your own creation - take notice of the stimilus bringing to you to this point over and over again and try to get an understanding of it - once you neutralise the stimilus creating the allure you would have wise eyes to identify disempowerment

i have been thinking about how context define us - if we had the ability to change whatever we could at will - to design our own etopia's as such would the creative potential be enough to keep us interested - the illusion would be complete - but with complete freedom to shift the illusion to whatever you wanted - the experiential aspect would be the same - it would feel real - like a very lucid dream which you had complete contoll over. There would be almost no restrictions to expression even death would be considdered a valid experience - the duality of experience would become neutralised - everything would be equal as just being something - it would become very difficult to differentiate and eventually everything would become neutralised to a state of amoral (judgement free) experience - could such a world actually be desirable?

now here is the dilemma - without struggle the novelty may wear off very soon - creation could become completely boring in itself - how many permetations would you be willing to repeat before you reach a saturation point

the aspect of struggle, difficulty, pain, suffering give us a variable of appreciation, value and challenge that makes the process of everyday life something that you can have perspective within - a unique viewpoint that hold value - well to you at least

A god in etopia must sure be a very strange being

what is your perception of power? - the power to control others/ the power of money to make processes possible/the power to make people feel good/the power to be precentient/the power to make people find you sexually attractive/the power to create illusion/the power to heal/ the power to facilitate change/the power to destroy/the power to manipulate a given outcome/ the power to evoke emotional responces

im unsure but think all the above highlight some of my perceptions - so what quitessential quality do you perceive power to be?

this topic (1) gave me the greatest number of hits ever - that makes me believe peoples curiosity in blogland is predominantly built around topics realting to sex/perceived topics on sex

who knows though - all just guesswork from my point of view

on a lighter note - it seems that i will be finding myself working on a complex project soon that will challenge my creativity to levels difficult to comprehend at the moment - how to make law entertaining with humor rather than with cleverness. a FOCUS till end september

there is no beauty without obscurity

Living on this planet is surely a paradox, a contradiction to the world peace view we seem to uphold. Life to me is predetory, its big fish eats little fish - a strange thing happens when you wake up to the realisation that once youve seen through the illusion it becomes impossible to escape the manipulation cycle governing relationships, business, entertainment. Knowledge does not set you free - it binds you to its own laws - the more aware you become the more subserviant you become to those beliefs proving that you are "aware" in the first place.

How does one reach escape velocity - the ability to have ultimate perspective - the ability to know without language or visual context, being conscious without the addiction to meaning - BEING

Human being - your beauty lies in ignorance

Essentially everything is an illusion, ultimately nothing will make sense & its all incredibly important

about five years ago i drove a little VW golf that was a magical car indeed - ive never been so psychicly connceted to any other inanimate object before and it looked after me very well - on my way to work something strage did happen - i heard a big cluck and my car stalled - at this tme i was just off the hiway on an offramp i managed to get the car started but there was some problem with my gearbox - my car could not get into gear - well i managed to get it into reverse - out of sheer desparation i then managed to turn my car around and drove to work in reverse gear - the traffic was tight and not moving very fast so it was not impossible to do - i did however draw allot of attention from everyone else in my lane - ofcourse i did it with complete conviction asif there was absoluitely nothing more natural that what i was doing - i got a few stares turing at the traffic lights i even switched my indicating to comply with traffic regulations - it was a very funny day when i eventually got to work

A micro paradigm could be an environment you spend energy, time or interaction which will seemingly be giving you something you desire in return for payment in some form - a club you frequent is a good example. The subculture that develops around such an environment keeps the paradigm alive by making its survive in the first place - collectively all players keep each other in place to make the illusion workable - Essentially you pay for your place on the ferris wheel it just depends when you will be getting off or if you will be aloud to - a place faling out of favour/ you outgrow the place or you find the association with the place no longer desireable - this is a interesting time - if you were you reenter the space post this awareness - you will probably be able to identify characters who have taken your place in the paradigm - these character would have been attracted to the position you developed within the paradigm one they wish to emmulate - however if you become aware of the nature of your specific interaction with the paradigm say while the ferris wheel kept you at the top it will be difficult for you to escape - the paradigm will keep you in that place in order to protect its own survival - the waiting game will begin where you will be at the mercy of the opperator who will bring you to where you can get off - you could take a risk and jump when you close enough to a safe landing but nothing is guarateed but rater that than you find yourself moving up again.

leap - fractals are deep

this picture was taken at Messina when i had my first and only full solar eclips experience - i think about three years ago - all the trees you see here are baobabs (NB. for reference read "the little Prince") we were standing on a odd rock on a plain with the shadow of the moon moving over us - the full eclips was seriously an experience everyone should have at least one time in their lifetime - im sure it can be positively addictive (the sunchasers prove this)and the experiential feedback your body goes through i have never experienced in any other way

weed you planets often